Chalean Extreme Day 18: My Dream Board

Hi there,

I started my Dream Board this weekend finally (I had bought the cork board a few weeks ago). I took some clippings from men's fitness and yoga magazines. I also had a picture of a kungfu dude using a Kwan Dao, a weapon which I would really like to learn. Maybe one day I will take pics of the board...

The Dream Board's purpose is to give you a place to put pictures and words that motivate you and help you visualize your goals. The idea is if you can visualize something, you can work more effeciently to stay on track toward your goals.

Weight Loss Success, The Secret of Bliss

I have come to realize that success at weightloss is actually extremely instantaneous. It happens right at those moments where we make a better choice and live better in each individual moment. The more you can exist in a place where you are open to these possibilities, the more of these successes you can string together. This rings true to me. It may seem like bologna to you, but that's not up to me.

Another thing that I am meditating on is my relationship with work and life. I often find myself wandering mentally, like right now LOL, goofing off at work. To my buddhist-wannabe perspective, it seems like work, love, life, and joy are all basically the same (BOOOOOOM! Big bang here!) and nothing is really work and everything is bliss if you are open to it (WoooooAH! Gnarly brainblast!). LOL.

CE Day 11: Building Character

Today I am reflecting on what Chalene Johnson said in this morning's Burn Intervals DVD. She was talking about pushing through discomfort and building character. Of course, she doesn't mean hurting yourself... She meant to try more each day, give another extra 10% and then more... I think this can really apply to diet too. The secret is to give that extra 10% in your workouts and in your life. After a while you will become a person who gives extra at everything you do. And if what you do is good for yourself and others you will be rewarded. Sounds pretty stress-free to me! So don't fret the small things, work hard and try your best each day.

Keepin' on! ( CE rest day)

Went to Mom's for family night last night and it was fine but she gave us leftovers which happened to be a big trigger food (albeit healthy but still) but she looked sad when I refused the first time. So then I took them and ate them secretly when we got home.Bummer.

I have been doing sooooo well lately in terms of choices and such, but binges and sneaks are plaguing me still (I haven't mentioned them all). Like I always say, "your inner demons want you to succeed just as much as you do, but they don't know any better than what they do, which of course is sabotage you." The binges and sneaks tend to subside when i live life proactively and meet stress and responsibility head on. I have been shirking in certain areas of my life and the key lies in the integration of differing life aspects. So here goes. One day at a time one hour at a time. Keep on keepin' on!

Dumplings Disaster

Well, I overate on Shirley's Chinese dumplings (guotie) last night. I feel quite sick today after doing relatively well for so long.

So now I know, dumplings are a trigger for me. Bigtime. I should have just denied them and eaten my veggies. Now there are none left and Shirley doesn't even have any to enjoy. Maybe this is my twisted way of saying "FOR MERCY'S SAKE< DON"T MAKE THESE ANY MORE!"

CE Day 4

Hi there,

I have been busy with my weekend and it's been hot, so I am less likely to spend time on my computer over the weekend in my hot apartment.

I did Burn Intervals this morning and found that it's a super TOUGH workout!!! Owwwieeee! But a good OWwwiiieee...

Not much else to report. Using iWatchr for my iPhone to track WW points. Working well so far...

Later!

A Foul Humor

I am in a foul, foul mood today. I realized that my aunt came to visit my grandparents in Virginia last week, my Mom told me about it, I decided I couldn't go...Today I realized that no one actually ever asked me to go. I was not invited. I don't trust my people to want me there. My family has hardly any real emotional connection. I feel like I am the only person who gives a damn. Sure I know I am a selfish and arrogant and alpha type personality, but my family should want me around... I have been almost crying alllllll morning. It sucks hardcore...

One thing this means is that I have NOT been exercising enough. I have been taking it easy because of my wrist, but I am not getting my usual endorphins.

My newly finer-tuned survival instincts are intact however. I wanted to go buy an orgy of XXXXXXXXXXXXXSHFJHASDFJASDKFBasj at Safeway before work to dull the pain of my sad life (my depression), but I didn't. I turned the car around and went back toward work, saw the 7-11 on the way to work, got weak and stopped...But after looking and looking, I bought 2 boiled eggs... LOL My first smile of the day. :/

So here goes. I hope you are well as you read this. We are all connected. If you are an older person in your family, don't give your younger people too much room. Call them and ask them how they are from time to time. Call them over to see you occasionally. And please take care of yourself and be well.

EDIT: I just realized that my Mom probably was asking me if I wanted to go when she told me about my Aunt's visit, but I don't remember the words. The words "Go with me" never occured.